Benefits of Being Mad - MIE

 Along with existence I received a way of existing, or a style. All my actions and thoughts are related to this structure, even a philosopher’s thought is a way of making explicit his hold upon the world. Yet, I am free, not in spite or beneath these motivations, but rather by their means. 

It does not restrict my access to the world...

It is my means of communication with the outside world.

Maurice Merleau-Ponty - The Phenomenology of Perception, 1945

The Benefits of Madness

Does chaos scare you? I feel it, I feel that out of control notion creates anxiety and starts the cold sweats. I understand when you gaze wide-eyed and want to scream so loud that glass shatters. I’ve lived there; I’ve had that moment. 

Yet I can also say one thing, the time I was really connected to some other power was when I was in the middle of a tornado and I let my body and soul ride it. 

It was chaos, it was madness, it was completely out of control and I probably did go a bit mad in the process, but looking back I can see that it was the moment where the universe and I were in sync. What I wanted, happened. Simple as that.

In the flow of madness.

So what does this mean, that we all need to lark about like crazed loons barking at dogs and doffing our top hats to daffodils? Well, if you want to do that then you should have the freedom to do that, but in this instance no. Yet the experience I had was akin to madness, only in the fact that my actions were questioned because they did not fit the norm. But then that depends on the norm that you should be fitting into. I mean, normal behaviour in Royal Tunbridge Wells is probably not normal behaviour in Chicago. Our actions and behaviours are designed to rest within the social structure around us, and when you break from that structure you are labelled.

Labels include but are not limited to: MAD; ECCENTRIC; WILD; CRAZY; ODD; DIFFERENT; SICK; LOONY; RUDE; WEIRD; MIXED-UP

You know the kind of thing. But I also know, as history would tell us so, that most invention and change has come from the minds of people labelled as such. Simply because they saw something in the world that they did not like and thought to change it.

So the real problem is not that madness is scary, it is that change is scary.

So are people really mad? Certain behavioural issues that were not accepted years ago are now recognised and treated. Where once people shouting in the middle of the high street was rude and odd is now seen as someone with a condition. Although, I see some mothers doing it to their young children and they are perceived as normal!

Madness was treated with barbarism in the 18th and 19th Centuries. I mean, drilling into someone's brain is going to make it all go away is it? I also feel the same with mind-numbing tablets, the fact that you are not behaving in a way that some pompous person deems acceptable in society does not require you to be dosed up to your eyes and left in the corner of a room as a zombie.

During my time of great change (I mean, it is still going on, we should always change), my behaviour was erratic and confusing to some. Yet it was at that time that I placed all of my trust in the universe. At the time I did not know I was doing that, it is only now, after learning, that I see it for what it was. Instead I used superstition and signs to guide me through. For instance, the law of attraction meant that if I had to make a decision I would see numbers, or cars, or colours, they would almost be on repeat. I would play video games and say out loud, if I get through this without losing then I am on the right path; guess what, I got through without losing. I had vivid and clear dreams that, over time, have come true.

I believe that people with depression, and it's splintered groups, are deeply connected to another dimension or the universe or to their subconscious. You can call it what you like. Depression is emotion on a very large and powerful scale. We are emotional animals and some of us feel that connection deeply. When I fall into a depression, I wonder at the sky, stare at clouds and speak to trees; I feel the pain of the world and hear the cries in the air. It is grief but it is also quite magical. If I can steer myself away from the fog that it creates I can feel that fizz in the air, that spark in the breeze. It is our connection to nature. We all have that, you don't need to suffer depression to feel that, but you do need to open your heart and your imagination to believe.

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So I say madness is not scary. Crazy comedy explains to us the ills of the world in a much more detailed way than the news sometimes does. A book written in surreal form can be far more truthful of the life that we are living than a biography. Madness is our way of seeing the world around us and coming to terms with it; laughing is the closest thing we have to crying, the two are almost the same and sometimes we do both at the same time. Trust your madness, trust your subconscious, trust yourself, you will begin to see signs if you let go and allow yourself to be guided from time to time.

Zac Thraves is a writer and performer.

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Once Upon a Time on the Outside, Looking In - MIE

 An Introduction

My name is Zac, I am on the outside looking in.

Time is not real. I know that this time of the year most of us are encouraged to renew, make changes, adapt to new habits; lose weight, get a new job or find a life partner. Pressures that we put on ourselves traditionally in January as a new year sets in.

But time isn't real. A new year starts because someone decided on a calendar, it really is just another day in your life. it makes no difference if you decide to diet on January 1st or April 1st, the difference is you deciding to do something. New Year Resolutions form our way to trick our psyche into thinking this is a good time for a fresh start. 

It's good; it's positive and it reminds you that you are a very powerful person. Until you give up. That is the danger. Once you give up and feel crap you look out at the grey sky and the cold weather and all you want to do is crawl into a ball and remind yourself how unfit you are and how you cannot control anything that you want to do.

So that's bad. We find ways to punish ourselves for the things we cannot do. We look at all our faults and problems and see the year ahead as long and perilous journey. Life not worth living.

That's really bad.

So before you add all that pressure on yourself and look out at the bleak winter and feel crap I want to remind you that there is no time. You can change any day of the week that you like because in the great scheme of things there is no day and there is no week. There is your life, and the lives of those that you love. What more do you want? Yes, you may wish to give up the booze, so do it, and if you have a day when you don't then move on from that. There is always another day because it is another part of your life. 

You want to change jobs, that takes patience and you will need to wait while doing work in the background. Same with starting a new project or business. Take the steps, enjoy the journey and don't think or worry about time. 

Time is not real. 

Enjoy the chapters of your life.

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I had a wonderful connection to the universe just today and a problem that has been sticking to me for over a year came to a sudden and wonderful realisation. What was the problem?

Well, I finished writing a book back in 2019 and I really liked it, in fact, I loved it. It is the story of a reluctant hero forced into a quest to save the world and realise the power that lies within him and in all of us. Along the way he is helped by old friends, new friends, gods and people of history, people like Charlie Chaplin and even Captain Kirk. He fights demons in a shopping mall and the mad egocentric businessman who wants to rule the world at the top of The Shard in London. I loved writing it; the story took me over a year to complete and I felt sad when it was over. I felt certain that this was The One. I knew in my heart that if I could get this to an agent and a publisher that an audience would love it. 

Great, but what was the problem?

I had no idea what to call it. I had written this story and any title I came up with didn't seem right. Nothing fit with it. It was a wild and imaginative story that Willy Wonka would have loved and I had no idea what to call the thing.

I put it away; I left it in a drawer and wrote other stuff. I released Spiked Imagination and The Self-Harming Pacifist and did not think about it. But then-

I woke this morning, 6th Jan, with a title as clear as day. I wrote it down and mused on it, it fit. I sat with it and meditated on it and it all seemed to be clear. I saw a path with a title and a book. I had received a literary miracle. What is quite wonderful is that this happened while I'm writing another book which, of course, I'm sure is the one and will connect with audiences and be published but is entirely different to the one I had written that time ago. 

The universe is a strange and amazing place if you believe that there is that power. In essence, I took away time, released pressure; let my subconscious work on it in it's own way. There is always an answer, our lesson is to be patient. 

What is the title I hear you scream at me!

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